Archives: February 2004
Fri Feb 27, 2004
Snowfall Musings
It did snow.
I grew up in a southeastern coastal town. We seldom had snow. MY mother
has some old family films of us frolicking in the big snow of the
sixties. We barely had enough snow to cover the grass.
This morning's snow is different. It lies in rolls across the back
yard; waves of wind tossed currents span the ground before me. The
trees bow to nature’s glory laden with cloaks of purity. Daylight has
begun and the clouds remain victories against the light, encasing this
pristine pallor for a moment more.
Soon the echo of youthful voices will rise from the cries of old and
young and find their way from careening sleds and flailing limbs, the
notice that humanity cannot standby and simply gaze on Nature's
punctuation to winter. It is in our nature to engage and overcome these
apparent obstacles to our paths of being. We must play. We must drive.
We must come and go through this robed beauty of stillness. Yet, for
the moment it is held sacred by the dawn, and I sit here alone,
caressed by the wonder of snow and the memories of a family that
relished once in the falling of a few flakes.
Later, I will introduce my wife to a well-flung snowball. Yes!
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Sun Feb 22, 2004
Sacred Moment
I saw the face of God the other day.
I was in a stranger’s home, where my new work often takes me, and was
taken by an unframed painting hanging in the foyer. After dealing with
several matters of business, I could not help but ask.
Theo: I hate to pry, but who did that painting?
Proud Mother: My daughter.
Theo: It is lovely, very moving, actually.
Proud Mother: That one over there was the first painting she ever did. (She pointed toward the dining room)
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Thu Feb 19, 2004
Monica
from the cafe table i watch. you walk, more of a hesitant step,
yielding to some great longing to move forward and yet, fighting with
inner demons to stay. you walk by. the breeze catching your hair,
undraping your eyes, filled with pools of longing. you bite at the edge
of your lip, looking, searching, your gaze darting from face to face,
as you look for...someone.
the sun's rays shine upon you and seem to be dimmed my the illumination
of your face, exploding into joy. the tears fall, landing upon the
sidewalk, on that place where you stood a moment ago. i see you run,
and in triumph embrace the golden light of the 'morrow, your freind and
your passion.
i turn again to my reading. warmly a smile creeps and turns the corners of my mouth. "It is finally her time," i think joyfully.
Peace my dear one. Peace.
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Ahhhh!
Perhaps the tide has turned. I find myself with no complaints. I 'love' my new job, being home every night, and seeing my children regularly. Today, at this moment, my life is full and I am truly grateful. More...
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Sun Feb 15, 2004
Theo's World Episode 021504
It may happen again in the future, but as far as I can tell this is my last morning using my Knoxville, Tn dial up connection. I will head to work later today to sell furniture for this national liquadation company for the final time. My journey in the world of furniture sales has come to a halt and I'm able and ready to move on to the next phase of my vocational journey. More...
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Fri Feb 13, 2004
A Turn in the Road
I took a new job this past Monday. As the transition had developed,
I find myself looking ahead now at the last three days of selling
furniture for my current employer. I’m looking forward to the end of
this segment of my vocational journey. There is no need to go into the
reasons why I am grateful about leaving. Let me just say that this job
had never felt ‘right’ for me. What I DO feel good about is that I have
stuck it out. I did not take the ‘easy’ option of leaving before I had
something to go to. I did not think of myself only, but rather I
considered how my family needed me to work, even here. I did not take
on the behaviors of my colleges here in an effort to feel more secure.
I DID act on a faith in the Divine’s ever victorious will for my life
even though I often did not feel very faithful or serene. I have
remained drug free. I have continued to work my program of recovery.
My new job, as a Services Representative for a rapidly growing 'home
improvement' company places me in an environment much more in keeping
with my convictions and preferences. I am working with people I
respect. I am able to be home at night. I am part of a highly trained
and professional team. I believe this new opportunity is a real gift
from Life.
I am hopeful and excited. Three days left here in Knoxville, Tn and my drive will then be taking me home, in more ways than one.
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Tue Feb 10, 2004
Bold emphasis added...
Artist : Five For Fighting
Title : 100 Years
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
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Sun Feb 08, 2004
Cause, Effect, and The Space-Time Continuum
I’m not an expert in the disciples that delve so deeply into such
matters as time and space and causality, but I am very tired of hearing
sports commentators and folks around me make ‘what if’ comments and
judgments about the Super Bowl of last Sunday. Hear are some of the
things I’m hearing…
IF Carolina hadn’t gone for the two point conversion…the game would have been tided…
IF Carolina hadn’t kicked the kick-off out of bounds…the Patriots wouldn’t have won.
IF Carolina hadn’t call a time-out on their last drive….time would have run out and they would have won…
There is one very BIG problem with such comments.
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Sat Feb 07, 2004
Home Improvement?
It looks like I will be changing jobs within two weeks leaving the
furniture business and weekly travel behind. I’m taking a position as a
regional sales manager for a locally owned home improvement company
(Just call me Tim Allen). I’ll be home most every night. I like the
owner and we have similar ideologies about sales and management. It
also helps that he is a person of spiritual convictions.
I’m off to work now for another weekend in Knoxville, Tn. selling
furniture and one more day closer to the next phase of the Theo journey.
Current fear: I have just started one of my current jobs, selling
promotional apparel. I like the owner and feel bad about backing out of
the position after he so carefully offered the job to me. I took the
position because I had nothing else to do and some possibility of money
through a straight commission job was better then nothing. I feel like
I am betraying him by leaving so soon. In my mind I know I will feel
better once I have told him. It is, as often is, the fear of how he
will react that nags at me.
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Thu Feb 05, 2004
Theo life. Episode 2052004
Everyone should have a life mate partner. Otherwise, who will snuggle warmly next to you in bed the night before you travel away for three days, look lovingly into your eyes and say… More...
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Tue Feb 03, 2004
Blog Roll Edit
I went through my blogroll yesterday and found a number of the links
broken. Those that I could find and update, I did. If yours is missing
and you would like it back on the list, email me with your updated
information and I'll see what I can do.
My email virus induced crash has been resolved.
If you are interested in thought and thoughts on writing, visit here. Caution: Sometimes my brain hurts after a visit over there.
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Mon Feb 02, 2004
Drying Time
If a human spirit falls in the forest of despair does it make a sound? More...
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Grrrrrrrrrrr
Today I have to deal with some consequences of my actions. First, I
have to pay a speeding ticket that I got some time back. Then I have to
find out if my licence was suspended and do what I need to do there.
More money, no doubt. The hardest part is facing my partner, wife, love
with this. She will be disappointed, again. I know I am.
Ugh. Meeting tonight. I know I can do what my soul would have me do. (repeat)
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